Had my weekly OB/GYN appointment today and I am 1 and 1/2 cm dialated and baby's head is very, very low...so now I'm starting to freak out! I guess it just didn't hit me until today's appointment that I don't have very long left until baby girl arrives! I haven't packed my hospital bag and there are a few more things I want to hang in her room plus I feel like she isn't going to have enough to wear since I don't have many newborn clothes and my doctor thinks she will be between 7 and 8 pounds. Ugh. I don't know why all of a sudden I'm worrying about these things?
The biggest thing I am worried about is my son. I keep thinking I have so much more time with just him at home than I actually do. I want to make sure every day we do something fun and exciting, yet I'm so big and exhausted that it takes all my energy to play cars and trains with him in the family room...let alone taking him to the zoo and walking for 2 and 1/2 hours (which I did yesterday and am paying for today!). I just want to make the arrival of his baby sister a joyous and fun event for him! Luckily, my husband will be home for the two weeks following baby girl's birth, so our son will have undivided attention from at least one of us most of the time.
I don't remember what my life was like before my brother was born when I was 3 and 1/2 so I am assuming our son won't remember his life before his sister, but I still have some mommy-guilt like I'm completely turning his world upside-down over night. He is such a good little boy and I just hope he adapts well to his baby sister. I think he will eventually...let's just hope it's sooner rather than later! :)
My doctor insists he doesn't think I'll make it to my due date (May 1st) so if you all of a sudden don't see any posts, or more shockingly, any tweets from me...then I'm probably in labor! I don't have a fancy phone so I won't be updating Twitter (have no clue how to do that from my phone) and I may update Facebook, but definitely not my blog, until I return.
Wish me luck in these last few weeks and if you have more than one child, maybe you could share with me some ways to make our transition easier!